It's late but I would be remiss if I didn't document at least a little bit of what's going on right now.
Just have to say...this has been a really difficult season in my life but yet I can't help but thank God. In some ways, this is all new for me which is part of why it's so difficult. But another thing that's new for me is my reaction. I can honestly say, even though it's a battle and a half and I'm not out of the woods yet, I am learning that God is walking me through, directing my paths, making straight ways for me, keeping me safe, sustaining me, and holding me. And He is giving me such revelation that I cannot help but be thankful. And I'm thankful in advance because even though at times I want to just give up on the process it is in this season that I am seeing just how valuable the "fire" is and how God is our light in the darkest times. It's like, even though my faith is struggling in some ways, in other ways I've come to a new dimension of faith. And, from that faith, again, springs GRATITUDE! And I believe that that gratitude is what is in part opening up doors for me - doors of MORE REVELATION, MORE JOY, PEACE. In the midst of the stormiest storms there is a certain safety that I feel - knowing that I am in God's hands, knowing that I have my family (blood family and church family) by my side whenever and in whatever capacity I need them.
And I am so grateful because I know that this healing, this deliverance process that is taking place, it is not only benefiting me but it is benefiting other people. And that's always my prayer - "God make it worth it!!! Use it for Your glory!" As I'm finding out the truth (and ... trying to ... accept it) God is surrounding me with other people that need to know that truth - of course in His timing. It's amazing because I'm not even through with the process yet and I'm already experiencing God's glory - I'm already seeing His purposes revealed. And also, He's surrounding me with people that have insight on what I'm going through because, lo and behold, they are going through it too. I'm learning that I'm not alone. Thank God for the people that sharpen my iron and for those whose iron, God-willing I can sharpen too.
