Open My Eyes / Lord I Need You

When all that I see are my circumstances

When the only truth I know is pain
Lord I need you.

I’d say all Hell is breaking loose around me

But it feels more like it’s piling on top of me.

When I have to fight the darkness outside

In the midst of the lies and the fear on the inside

Lord I need you.

You want me to stand but I can’t even get up.

I feel so weighed down.

Lord I need you.

I need You and I know You’re there and yet I don’t feel You.

Show me Your face God.

Show me Your hands.

Open my eyes.
Yes.

Like You responded to the tears of Hagar and her offspring

And showed her how what she needed was right there,

See me and see my future generation and show me where the water is.

Open my eyes.

Yes.

Like You responded to Elisha and showed his servant that so many more were for him then were surrounding him,

Open the eyes of me, your servant, and show me that You are for me and that You are mighty.

Yes.

Open my eyes.

There’s a purpose for the desert!

Twice Hagar found herself in the desert. Twice Hagar found GOD in the desert. The first time, He gave her His word. The second time, He gave her provision. And that time, it wasn't even her own tears that moved God. She was crying in her heart, but her son was crying out loud and God heard the boy's tears and blessed Hagar! Twice Hagar found herself in the desert. Twice Hagar found GOD in the desert. The first time, He gave her His word. The second time, He gave her provision. And that time, it wasn't even her own tears that moved God. She was crying in her heart, but her son was crying out loud and God heard his tears and took care of the mother.

The first time, Hagar ran to the desert to try to escape. The second time she was forced there. I wonder what would’ve happened if she wasn’t in the desert? And it makes me wonder: What does God want to show me or do for me in the middle of this desert? And how much worse would it be if I WASN’T here? If I was comfortable would I know God the way I do now? (And I say this in faith and in gratitude because even though I don’t understand why God is allowing so much stuff to happen in my life right now, there is ABSOLUTELY NO WAY that I can doubt that He is God and that He is good and that He is still at work and that His provision is on the way. I have to believe that He sees me like He saw Hagar and that He’s gonna open my eyes to everything that I need to get through this.)